of the upswing



" the biggest lie you ever told
your deepest fear 'bout growin' old
the longest night you ever spent
the angriest letter you never sent
the boy you swore you'd never leave
the one you kissed on new years's eve
the sweetest dream you had last night
your darkest hour, your hardest fight

i wanna know you
like i know myself
i'm waiting for you
there ain't no one else
talk to me baby
scream and shout
i want to know you
inside out
i wanna dig down deep
i wanna lose some sleep
i wanna scream and shout
i wanna know you inside out
i wanna take my time
i wanna know your mind
ya know there ain't no doubt
i wanna know you inside out

the saddest song you ever heard
the most you said with just one word
the loneliest prayer you ever prayed
the truest vow you ever made
what makes you laugh,
what makes you cry
what makes you mad,
what gets you by
you highest high,
your lowest low
these things I want to know..."

~Inside Out
Bryan Adams

and when we grow up
and when we grow old
we get a lil wiser
with each heartbreak
with every time we next fall in love
with one new kiss
we get a lil wiser

the highest highs
the lowest lows
it feels good to be on the upswing again
*smilez*
8)

of the godliness



" Emptiness is loneliness
and loneliness is cleanliness
And cleanliness is godliness
and god is empty
just like me..."

~Zero
The Smashing Pumpkins

one whole big cycle
when all we seek
is what we fear
and what we shun
is what we desire
and when all that goes up
must come down
and when a new beginning
is the end of the previous beginning
and the beginning of the end of the next

our life cycle
and when all is empty
when all is empty

of the kallang roar




after 12 long years
the kallang roar was back
and i was a part of it
no doubt i hadda pay 15 bux for a black market ticket
but it was worth every single cent of it
the deafening kallang roar
the thundering stadium with everyone stomping on the ground
the kallang wave
the classic air-horn + butoh combi...
hahaha
after leadin indonedia 3-1 in the first leg on indonesian soil
the lions came into the 2nd with a FULLY PACKED national stadium
the last time it happened, i was a part of it too
during the malaysia cup
an early goal and a penalty saw singapore go into the break 2-0 up
indonesia pulled one back in the 2nd half but it was never enough
and we made legend.

on a personal level
for 2 hours, i revisited a time while i was much younger
a little boy who went to a big stadium to cheer on his country's football team without knowin the players' names but was just happy to jump around
we win, i cheer
we lose, i also cheer

on a national level,
tonite, wearing red
i finally understood the pledge they made me take as a kid
the thing about regardless of race and religion?
in that stadium, we were truly one country
yellow brown black or white
a sea of red celebrating our lions' victory and liftin the cup
and more importantly, welcomin back the kallang roar
it's been too long... too too long..
for that 2 hours,
i was truly, truly proud to be singaporean
cept i'm prolli gonna have a sore throat when i wake tomorrow..
*cough*
but it was all well worth it..
all well worth it...
8))

of the time and the people




yes, i know i've blogged this into the ground before
how time spares no one?
and how i miss everything that i've left behind?
well, today i'm gonna specifically talk about - the people
the people we meet

6 stangers
workin on an environment project
through some sleight of hand,
and twist of fate
under seemingly mundane, normal circumstances
and get acquainted
and before you know it,
you check your msn log to recover some evidence and u realize
wow!! u mean we've been talkin for a whole year?!?!?
where did all that time go???

and then there were the others,
the ones u usd to sit next to everyday
to try and hope to suvive a lecture without fallin asleep
well we're all grown up now
and to the cold corporate world we sold our souls
but on a weekday afternoon
u put big boys and girls at a lunch table
to eat croissants and drink cappuccinos
and for just a moment
we stopped bein corporate whores
and were happy lil kids again
yes the conversation's a lil different
the place's a lil different
but, the people's the same
the people... it's all about the people

so yeah... from someone with stmd..
thank you stranger~
*smilez*

of the inspiration




what inspires me -
the rain at night | standin alone at my window lukin out at tha night world with a cigarette in hand | going so fast my toes tingle | tha amazin race | twirlin my thumb ring on ma thumb | billy corgan | the rede | long lonely drives on an empty highway at night with a stained female voice singin on my stereo | the full moon | the comfort of fallin back to sleep when you wake and realize it's saturday | a nice cold cup of coke | a nice hot cup of coffee | the rain at night

what inspires you -
?

of the constantly bad ear




yea ear
not year, the ear
wat u use to listen with
i was at NUH this mornin AGAIN cos it stopped listenin again
i have bad ears
they alternate to crap up on me
sucks

on that note, have u ever met people that are truly nice, but it's just so hard to listen to them without
1) fallin asleep
2) screamin some obscenity
3) fakin a polite smile
4) wishin the ground wld open up and swallow ya

maybe it's just me
i jus don't have a high tolerance for people who speak without putin their words thru a sound thinkin process and they just projectile-vomit their rubbish on me
the cleaning up's messy
i dun like
hahahaha

of the new year



image courtesy of cousin mindi

and it's a new year again!!!
my my... and we thought we wouldnt survive the millenium
well here we are 5 yrs down tha road!!!

nye was a toned down affair for me
i smoked shisha with my cousin mindi, charmaine and ma bro rudy
then at 1130 we decided to buy a couple beers and go to tha open space at marina south to usher in tha new year
we had to trek thru eerie state land and cousin mindi covered her ears with her hands the whole time.. hahaha
pics here
when the clock struck, there were new year hugs all around
and just like i was tellin rudy over our beers..
this is gonna be a good year...
have fun now y'all!!!
8)